Intro: new year, more possibilities.
- lavanyaa vgr chandran
- Jan 3, 2022
- 3 min read
Honestly, I have zero inkling on how to start a blog. Lol. But here it goes. Basically, this whole blog is created to put my work out here. Kinda like an art portfolio for everyone to look at. Links to my music... Maybe even some solemn articles or nonsensical 2am thoughts. Yadda yadda yadda... Basically, a blog filled with my dreams that people may think is impossible to achieve. I think about that sometimes too. But you know, that little oil lamp in me has not been extinguished yet so, I'll try my best. I don't have any goal here, just trynna go with the flow. I'm saying this beforehand, if you don't like what I do here, you can just exit this page :) Hate will not be tolerated here. I work at my own pace and my creativity flow. you can come to look at it and be inspired by it or cry at it? Idk but this page is all about healing, the perspective of art, my philosophical thoughts, and my very own music (coming soon btw).
I was initially going to start this blog before Christmas but due to heavy workload and recent flood devastations, I could barely publish anything. I don’t think I will post often. When creativity strikes, that’s when I’ll post. I don’t want to force myself and abuse my creativity flow just to post something on this blog. I'm not a robot. I don’t want to be burnt out because the last time I did that, I had a fever, joint pain, and muscle pain. So, I am NOT doing that all over again. XD This year, feels new. Obviously, it’s a new year, same me. My goal this year is to be more coordinated, organized, consistent and, a little more persistent. This is basically what I wish for every single day, but this time, I'll work harder for it. Be a little more productive maybe. I don't know and I can't promise but, I'll do my best. Along the way, I'll try to improve in the little things. Like to drink more water, start exercising regularly, stop sitting like a shrimp, and spend lesser time on social media apps (it's gonna be so tough XD).
Of course, this can't just happen overnight. Some days will feel stagnant and other days I may fail. And it's okay. It's all about growth. Striving for perfectionism is exhausting. I've been on it for years now. Rather than satisfaction and productivity, I only got further demotivated. So this year, instead of expecting perfect results, I want to enjoy the process instead of stressing out about it. I started this mentality last year and I want to further implement it this year. I hope you apply it to your daily life activities too! Instead of frowning about a small mistake, laugh at it! (i know it sounds lunatic af but it works for me!!) Anyways, here's a post by heyamberrae that is the perfect example of growth!
I don’t remember much from 2021. I can't distinguish between 2020 and 2021. I lost track of time. It's just so crazy. My whole pre-university life went to waste. One and a half years just flew by like it's no big deal. Even my real age feels soooo fake. A lot of good and also a WHOLE LOT OF unimaginable things happened. 2021 feels neutral to me. Good things cancelled out the bad. It felt mundane. Like how when you add a positive number and a negative number of the same value together in an equation, the answer will be zero. Neutral.
To completely move on from 2021, I will list the top 3 things I am grateful for and the top 3 devastating things that I absolutely hated. I'm grateful for meeting a few awesome internet people who have been a source of my happiness without even knowing it (maybe it's time I tell them 'thank you for sticking with me'). Next, is FOR COMPLETING A-LEVELS BECAUSE SEMESTER 3 WAS THE SHITTIEST AND I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT! (especially physics, the spawn of satan. I love physics though <3). And, of course, BTS (since 2019). The shitty things that happened to me were the unsolicited panic attacks that were so uncalled for, my birthday (spent a good 3/5 of the time in a car and 1/5 of it in my online class. The cake was a highlight tbh). And lastly, flood. There's more but I honestly can remember anything before November. Yeah yeah, I'm a grandma *eye-roll* WHATEVER!! This year feels like a fever dream. I talk too much. More like I type too much. So, this is where we part ways *sobs* till next time!
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